So I did make the script to remove all AI results from Google Search. I made it without any help from Claude at all actually. I didn't look at docs as much as I did spent on Stack Overflow though. I'm not quite sure if that really helps me improve on my doc reading abilities.

In any case, I managed to do it. I don't think I was ever THAT bad a programmer in the first place to be honest. I just need even more exposure to the tools I'll be touching on the job. Like AGILE stuff (what even is that?) and kubernetes.

Sadly, with my anxiety it really a dice roll on whether I wake up with pure stress that the world is ending or feel okay. I'd like to hope that I feel more okay than I don't, but it isn't really the case.

"Have you been more anxious about studying and jobs recently?" My girlfriend asked.

"When have I not been?"

"You're right, but I mean-"

It's a little sad that it's visible to my girl too. While I'm glad that I'm not alone in my stresses, I know that being high strung most of the time will rub off on her as well. I know it does, because she sees me doing 'productive' things or thinking about 'what if's relatively often. Sometimes she talks to me about her own anxieties that she's not smart or good enough.

I don't want to cause her to feel that way. So I need to get a grip on myself. I want to be a good presence for her.